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A while ago in the mass i was enlighten by Fr. Mallari S.J. 's homily.
He said that true Christian love is never dependent on to something or on to someone. Christian love excludes no one. i realize that today and even yesterday, i have been missing this person i always get to talk to and to be with for these past few months, and because of this i grew lonelier and lonelier just for the very simple reason that his mother called him up and wanted him to get home, and so he went home and definitely i am not seeing him around.
and i was struck by the priest's message because what i was feeling now is very wrong. i am already too attached to this person and my happiness also depends on his presence.
our happiness should never be dependent. we should be happy even if the something we want is gone or the someone we truly love is far from wher we are, because we knew that they are already a part of us. and it doesn't matter where they are, because they will always live in our hearts. This is love------having the most important person in your life without owning him, because you both know that the universe had already unite your souls even before you were conceived, and that once upon a time you were one.

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There were those times when i want the future to come so soon.
But, suddenly, ever since i have known how to lose in a game just to be with you, i want the world and time to stand still for both of us.
The more you hold me, the more you touch me, the more you kiss me: how i would like the universe to be frozen in time, so, that moment would never come to an end.

I can always feel your body tremble and my heart burst as our souls communicate.
And the earth shatters as we go conquering one another.

And this morning, i realized that this is wrong: What the eyes don't see, the heart does not grieve over.
Because, if we are far from the person we love most, everything around reminds us of them.
And my heart has been grieving so much that i am always reminded of you, and that today you are not here with me.
And for me, what my eyes don't see, my heart does grieve over.