Friday, April 25, 2008

my infinity.

sumday we will remember all these days---
--days when we found it so hard to breathe without the scents of you and me.

but as long as the wind whispers breathing, i look forward to the moment that we will lie down together like seasons wont change.

for since we knew this feeling, like the sun and the moon who struggled to redeem their universe, you and me decided to create our own infinity.

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

ultimate

ive got to win it so...
i missed you badly..
ill see you soon pa.
;p-ma

Sunday, March 9, 2008

i wish...

i wish the night, like this, never falls like the stars that never kiss the earth.i wish to always see the sun as it breaks the untouchable horizon.
for the brightness of the heating day, the touch of the cold north wind, and the eering sounds of polychromatic noise; i seem to neglect this condemnation that spreads through my blunt hormones.
i wish an immortality of paranoia between us like the shuttered and aging love letters of a romeo-and-juliet that out-casted time to surpass mortality.
and though your touch perturbs the sweetness of my every dream; and though your glance untrammeled this weary valentine----------------the feeling clamored and this overjoy steered away paradoxes.
Nostalgia is almost killing me.
i love you. sometimes you love me too.how could i not love the sight of those glacial almond eyes behind those breakable spectacles.
i love you. sometimes you love me too.how could i not love the voice that kept calling out my name in those early morning of departure.
i love you. sometimes you love me too.how could i not love rainy days---like this one--that i wish to held you in my arms as the sky behold those stars in her great palms, and kiss you again and again.
Nostalgia is almost killing me.
i love you. and i don't know if sometimes you love me too.this distance plays a melancholic song that sinks in every stria of my body---running in the speed of light---to struck my heart dead!
i love you. and i don't know if sometimes you love me too.this idea that someone else is also waiting for your arrival releases the cannonball that signals the downfall of this civilization.
i love you. and now, i really wonder if there was ever 'sometimes' that you have loved me too.those 'sometimes' that i felt i knew things about you that others can only dream of knowing;or those 'sometimes' that i had to walk the rotten alleys of Necropolises.
Nostalgia is almost killing me.
i love you. and if you would ever love me,love me now.
-121007:AM848-(for Nayrb)

Thursday, February 28, 2008

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A while ago in the mass i was enlighten by Fr. Mallari S.J. 's homily.
He said that true Christian love is never dependent on to something or on to someone. Christian love excludes no one. i realize that today and even yesterday, i have been missing this person i always get to talk to and to be with for these past few months, and because of this i grew lonelier and lonelier just for the very simple reason that his mother called him up and wanted him to get home, and so he went home and definitely i am not seeing him around.

and i was struck by the priest's message because what i was feeling now is very wrong. i am already too attached to this person and my happiness also depends on his presence.
our happiness should never be dependent. we should be happy even if the something we want is gone or the someone we truly love is far from wher we are, because we knew that they are already a part of us. and it doesn't matter where they are, because they will always live in our hearts. This is love------having the most important person in your life without owning him, because you both know that the universe had already unite your souls even before you were conceived, and that once upon a time you were one.

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There were those times when i want the future to come so soon.
But, suddenly, ever since i have known how to lose in a game just to be with you, i want the world and time to stand still for both of us.
The more you hold me, the more you touch me, the more you kiss me: how i would like the universe to be frozen in time, so, that moment would never come to an end.

I can always feel your body tremble and my heart burst as our souls communicate.
And the earth shatters as we go conquering one another.

And this morning, i realized that this is wrong: What the eyes don't see, the heart does not grieve over.
Because, if we are far from the person we love most, everything around reminds us of them.
And my heart has been grieving so much that i am always reminded of you, and that today you are not here with me.
And for me, what my eyes don't see, my heart does grieve over.

Tuesday, January 9, 2007

abwt my last blog

hai.it was so damn just to discover that your blog in where you have exhausted your mind for almost half of a year had been corrupted by any human or unhuman invader in this planet. how shit!